The Story:
About a month ago, almost exactly, I wrote about a three-year fellowship for which I am applying. It would be my ticket out of the classroom and my stepping stone to designing, planning, and opening my own school.
I have now made it through rounds one and two of the application process. The final stage of candidate selection is an all-day interview. Nine hours long, I have been invited to participate in this insane event a week from tomorrow. As part of this day I will show my abilities to perform all the same skills on which I am currently evaluating my students for their third quarter report cards: listening and speaking, problem solving, independent learning, reading and writing, following directions, and playing well with others. The organization's selection committee will be there with the group of candidates being evaluated, along with the principals of all the schools accepting interns for next year.
The Lesson:
I am terrified they will give it to me and I am terrified they won't; it is this or nothing. Either I am awarded this fellowship and packing my bags for five weeks in Boston this summer to go to Principal Camp at Harvard, or I am not awarded this fellowship and I am packing my entire apartment for a year in Israel and around the world. Even though it took me many years of life and countless hours in therapy to recognize it, I am very much a black-and-white thinker, an all-or-nothing girl. So to me these are the only possibilities right now, and confusingly I want them both in equal measure.
you can do both of those things and if you have made it to round three, you must have impressed the shit out of them! good luck miss nelson! :)
Posted by: yatesy | April 20, 2007 at 03:27 PM