The Story:
Now that I have been at camp for about a month I am finally starting to feel like I belong at least a little, and that I have some friends. My two roommates--the social worker and the nurse--are my friends and so is the gardener and one of the wilderness leaders. The female nanny is cool, one of the songleaders this session is someone I know from home, and the current visiting director is friendly to me although I certainly would not say we are friends even though she might think otherwise.
The wilderness leader and I were sitting in my office a few nights ago doing some joint programming for our two departments when he confessed (and I am not even really sure how we got started talking about this since ostensibly we were talking about Judaism in nature) that he has what he described as a "friend crush" on me, a term I had not heard before but one which makes perfect sense. This is fascinating because when someone I know had come up to camp before the season started for supervisors' training, she picked this wilderness leader out as someone in whom I might be interested...
Which would make it seem like it's not only all well and good but also very positive that he has a friend crush on me, but unfortunately his girlfriend is the gardener and so it is actually a little bit of a problem. Not the friend crush thing, that is no problem at all, but rather the fact that I can see I am developing a little bit of an un-friend crush on him which is not okay for a variety of reasons.
The Lesson:
Note to self: spend less time with the wilderness leader, even though he has freckles and eyes that light up when he smiles.
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